"My Portion" By Diane Webb
Lamentations 3: 24—"The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him."
In what or whom do you place your hope? Is it financial security, staff benefits, your spouse, your child, your retirement account, or your pastor? Do you look to something or someone for your security? If you have or if you do you know there are times you are let down and disappointed. The best of friends can't always be there for you. The most loving of spouses sometimes are not completely honest with you. Jobs can be changed or lost altogether. The stock market drops and retirement accounts shrink. Placing hope in anything or anyone but the Lord is a risky thing to do. Your security and your prosperity come from God and God alone. He controls the stars, the moon, the tides, and the seasons. He can certainly manage your boss, your friend, your child, or your spouse so you don't have to. It's not necessary for you to have back up plans when God has told you what he has in store for you. You do not need to manipulate situations to ensure God can keep his promise. You do not have to help God figure out a way to help you. Being confident in your hope is not the same as being arrogant. Sometimes, in your effort to remain humble, you portray a lack of confidence. Confidence in the Lord is a good thing. Sharing that confidence with others is spreading the gospel. Any sign of hesitation or discouragement demonstrates a lack of faith in what God has promised you. You pray for guidance and God gives guidance. You recognize he has led you a certain way. You are excited about the prospects. After a day or two—when things don't happen as quickly as you thought they would—you begin to doubt. Never doubt God. When God says something, he means it and he never makes mistakes. Your act of disobedience is what slows things down. If God promises one job, don't take precautions and apply for two. Trust he will provide the one job he has promised to you. Any delay in the deliverance of a promise God has given us is either because God knows the best timing or we have demonstrated a lack of obedience. God does not take away his promises but he is on his own time schedule. Be patient. God is with you. He has your life in his hands and under his control. Listen to your soul because your soul says "the Lord is my portion".
Heavenly Father, I am sorry for not trusting you 100%. Like Sarah, I tried to hurry things up a bit or hedge my bets "just in case". Forgive me, Lord, and erase any negative consequences of my disobedience. I repent and turn my life back over to you. You do a much better job than I do. I submit; In Christ's name, Amen.